January 11th, 2019

I don't have much to say tonight except I just want to talk about kindness, to myself and others.

I was pretty broken up about my choices the other day. But they made me get up at 5:00 this morning and go to a hot yoga class. That's definitely not something I would normally do. But I looked at my schedule for the day and  realized if I wanted to go to yoga, which I very much did, that was my best opportunity. And I don't want to feel that disappointment in myself again. Which is why I am also sitting here writing right this minute.

I am coming in to this project with a lot of shit in my heart that I am not thrilled with, a lot of pain I wish I could just let go of. While it seems to be moving out more slowly than I would like, at least it's moving. 

So right now, I am just here, keeping a promise to myself, not sure what or how I feel, and making the choice to be ok with that. 

Grand Lake, Colorado